the Past

hey..
sorry for not updating any post this past weeks.. :(
cse i was kinda emo when i start looking back at my past post..
but what is done, its done..
it will always be the most memorial time in my life being wif him..
during those happy time..
but still i regret on not knowing that im a third person who took sum1's
till i realise somethings wrong n i found out myself..
it was too late..
but when things started to get ugly i decided to call it off cause i know she is waiting for him
and he still (what should i say) love her..
they meant to be wif each other..
one of my friend told me to fight for my love but i really cant do it..
i also regret on having this relationship called off but there's nothing much i can do..
dumb me..

was hearing this song while blogging..
Here Comes Goodbye - Rascal Flatts

Weird ~~~

hey hey..
it has been a month i've post something..
oh gosh..
i hav a totally weird dream las nyte..
rilli bad dream which is impossible..
but let me tell u a secret *pist pist*
come nearer *whisper*
my dreams which makes me feel like im in real life mostly are A DREAM COME TRUE!!
its like a DeJaVu.. gosh..
*pray to god* hope tis time the dream is Not TRUE !!NOT TRUE !!
cse it'll be so awkward..
it's not so..
but really really awkward !!
btw, let me tell for the past one month 'bout my life..
it has been a pleasure time..
OH YEAH ! i've had my hair cut.. its short dowh.. better than last time.. ^^
this is the ever 1st time i'm kinda satisfy on my hair cut..
i've been less talking to my friends.. dunno y..?
me and my cllge friends too have been celebrating James Birthday recently..
1sh Bash was at NeWay on friday13.8.2010 ( which i didnt attend) sorry guys!!
2nd Bash was at MyCafe at Mentari.. Monday 16.8.2010 Before that we went to sg.way for lunch..
So, coming soon tis Thursday is Joan's birthday !
Woohoo!! Happy Brthday Joan !! (early wish)
So, hows my college life ?
I would say Okay..
Miss My GG Babes !!!!!! Cant wait till Raya !!
Cause My 2 Lovely Babes are coming back !!
and four of us, Steph , Sam , Ys and Me gonna go shopping, yamcha and all things tat gals do !!
*Taaaa Daa!!!*

till now.. gtg. need ready for class.. ^^
by angela a.k.a B.R.A

I Hate Love

I hate the mornings
Cause I know what they bring
You get up and take a shower and in no time, youre leaving
It sounds so selfish
But i can't help but think
That if you knew how much i needed you
You'd stay

I hate goodbyes
I hate these tears in my eyes
I hate myself for the way i feel about you everytime
I've had enough
I'm sick of wishing you were around me every day, every night
its way too much
I hate love yeahhyeahhh
I hate love yeahh woooo

I hate your phone calls
In the middle of the day
Cause all they do is just remind that my baby's so far away
It drives me crazy babe
Cause i need you here with me
I know its hard for you to understand when i say

I hate goodbyes
I hate these tears in my eyes
I hate myself for the way i feel about you everytime
I've had enough
I'm sick of wishing you were around me every day, every night
its way too much
I hate love

I don't want to feel this alone (I can't help it)
Everytime you walked out that door
I start missing you (I can't help it no)
Wish I didn't need you this much (I can't help it)
But i love how it feels when we touch

I hate goodbyes
I hate these tears in my eyes
I hate myself for the way i feel about you everytime
I've had enough
I'm sick of wishing you were around me every day, every night
its way too much

I hate goodbyes
I hate these tears in my eyes
I hate myself for the way i feel about you everytime
I've had enough
I'm sick of wishing you were around me every day, every night
its way too much
I hate love
I hate love
I hate love


Go Youtube And Hear This Song.
Its Really Nice..
Tony Braxton - I hate Love

Moody..? & Dreams..?

hey hey..!!
its me again..
felt so stress out lately..
duno why..
my collegemates always say "why go back so early?"
i oso dont know guys...
really..
i guess i felt stress and tired..
im too tired.. dont know why..
or maybe i just dont feel like seeing people..?
what a lame excuse..
freaking lame~~
what i can say is that, i'm too lazy~~
short semester is really tiring then long semester..
everything need to be rushed~~
headache!!!!!
assignment!!
test!!
exam!!
luckily these semester is gonna end..
3rd semester is coming soon!!
hope it'll be more interesting and fun!!
muahahahaha!!
all in my mind is just fun!!
i hope the years past as fast as possible..
so i can get my degree..
and daddy promised me Car Of My Dream !!
Argh!!!! i love that car so much !!!
dream car since i was form 5..!!!
and hope i could start a Business..!!
That was my dream too and its in my blood..!
I guess its a hormone from my grandparents..
So i guess i've to study hard study hard!!
Come on!!! Come on!!
just 4 more years!!
but i've also plan to work here for few years till my life is stable and
plan to go abroad London to work there , my birth place..
and hope i could countinue my masters' if i can manage it..
haha.. mummy said it's too early for me to think that..
haha.. but i've told her "i always think further than what i am now"
Cause that is ME!! haha..
tata!

Impossible

I remember years ago
Someone told me I should take
Caution when it comes to love
I did, I did
And you were strong and I was not
My illusion, my mistake
I was careless, I forgot
I did
And now when all is done
There is nothing to say
You have gone and so effortlessly
You have won
You can go ahead tell them

Tell them all I know now
Shout it from the roof top
Write it on the sky love
All we had is gone now
Tell them I was happy
And my heart is broken
All my scars are open
Tell them what I hoped would be
Impossible, impossible
Impossible, impossible

Falling out of love is hard
Falling for betrayal is worst
Broken trust and broken hearts
I know, I know
Thinking all you need is there
Building faith on love is worst
Empty promises will wear
I know (i know)
And now when all is gone
There is nothing to say
And if you're done with embarrassing me
On your own you can go ahead tell them

Impossible by Shontelle
Love the lyrics..

Lyrical Me

James Morrison ft. Nelly Furtado - Broken Strings
they had a great song with meaningful lyrics.. Love IT!!

Let me hold you
For the last time
It’s the last chance to feel again
But you broke me
Now I can’t feel anything

When I love you
It’s so untrue
I can’t even convince myself
When I’m speaking
It’s the voice of someone else

Oh it tears me up
I tried to hold but it hurts too much
I tried to forgive but it’s not enough
To make it all okay

You can’t play on broken strings
You can’t feel anything
That your heart don’t want to feel
I can’t tell you something that ain’t real

Oh the truth hurts
A lie is worse
I can’t like it anymore
And I love you a little less than before

Oh what are we doing
We are turning into dust
Playing house in the ruins of us

Running back through the fire
When there’s nothing left to save
It’s like chasing the very last train
When it’s too late

Oh it tears me up
I tried to hold but it hurts too much
I tried to forgive but it’s not enough
To make it all okay

You can’t play our broken strings
You can’t feel anything
That your heart don’t want to feel
I can’t tell you something that ain’t real

Oh the truth hurts
And lies worse
I can’t like it anymore
And I love you a little less than before

But we’re running through the fire
When there’s nothing left to say
It’s like chasing the very last train
When we both know it’s too late

You can’t play our broken strings
You can’t feel anything
That your heart don’t want to feel
I can’t tell you something that ain’t real

Oh the truth hurts
And lies worse
I can’t like it anymore
And I love you a little less than before
Oh and I love you a little less than before

Let me hold you for the last time
It’s the last chance to feel again

Thanks!

hey..
was a tiring day.. make me feel sick and emo~~
haixxx...
btw, i want to thanked vincent and long kor..
vincent told me something today..
supposedly said that he actually taught me something..
thanks a lot.. i really understand and i am not mad or angry of what you said..
really.
and to long kor, u've ask me to be tough, be strong of what people said about me..
because in working life, it'll be more worse..
wow. i didnt know that..
i guess because my thinking was just too simple..
simple till i thought everyone is good and will not betray each other..
why cant it be as simple as thought?
i guess i never go through that before that's why i dont know..
im still immature.. but i just wish my life was simple as it could be..
being in love , a successful career , having a family , healthy family..
that's what i want and i shall achieve..!!
but now the most important thing are my studies and graduating in diploma , degree , masters..
if i can, i shall move more forward to professional..
GOD BLESS ME!!!

What does It mean to Me?

Love?
What does it mean to you eventually?
To me it's a feeling where it makes a me so haooy being with a guy that i love and wanting him to be by my side all the time..
Leaning on his shoulder and holding his hand tight..
And when I hug him, i'll hug him as tight that makes him feel that i'm scared of him running away..
Its kinda funny thou when guys think like tat..
I'll always be wondering what's on
*to be countinued*

Memories of Piggy Baby

hey..
was thinking 'bout him the whole day..
n i laugh all of a sudden when i remember seeing you sleeping like piggy..
and you was snoring too.. haha.. cutey pie.. <3 oh! oh! and also when you walk me back to cllge from your place, after that almost every-time i asked you for a peck its a gudbye kiss.. haha.. so cute! Cute Cute!! hmm.. i always felt that i trouble u a lotss.. in many ways, u know.. now wat can i do......? do you still Love me? or Not? i juz duno what to say.....
miss you singing for me..
I always ask you whether u "happy anot today?"
you told me that when you're happy den you'll sing a song for me.. haha..
tats why i ask you.. " happy anot today?"
haha.. you always avoid that question cause you dont wanna sing.. haha..
but at last i always win.. showing merajuk face.. haha
and you sang for me..
wish you could sing for me everyday..
^^

My Feelings During This Sem Break

Tears flow thru..
When i read those sweet messages you use to sent to me when we're in LOVE..
Time Pass so Fast.. I've never wanted to let you go.. But I have to..
Some ppl think that i'm doing it right to let u go n 4get bout you..
Cause they think you're not worth being with me.. But they were wrong..
Its LOVE that make me felt that u're the right one for me..
I really want u back so badly.. Will u do the same?
Honestly I just Cant forget 'bout u..
One of my friend was right.. When he said that the words I said 'bout me "to forget 'bout u
and moving forward without you in my life".. Truth is in My Heart..
YEAH!
Its Impossible to do so..
I have to say out.. I still LOve you.. I cant keep it in my Heart.. It Hurts a lot..
It makes me shout this words to you.. " I LOVE YOU, brainless!!!"
N tat day when u told me that u still have little feelings towards ur ex, juz that word makes me nt trusting u much and kept on doubting you most of the time..
Its those words..!!!
I hate It!!! I know you dont like the things i did..
But do you ever care of what i felt??
N y am I doing the things you dont like me doing it?
Its because of those words.. Make me insecure..
I've trust you so much till that day you told me tat u've still have feelings for ur ex..
I regret forcing you to tell me y u emo..
I didnt know that u will emo 'bout that..
I still rmb that words you told me when u sent me home after we when to james' open house and
papparich..
I will rmb the memories since 4th February till 15th April..
I felt so F**k**g ANGRY!! when i need to say those words to end our relationship..